One More Day Like Today

There are days when I feel so damn lonely. Today's one.

I feel rootless, I feel shattered, I feel I have no one to confide in. I feel my life has just rushed past me and here I stand at the other end of the tunnel and the light wasn't a new light, it was just the old light reflecting.

I'm so bitter today and so angry, I'm tired, life hasn't been pretty and I've had enough now. I don't believe in happiness anymore and I don't believe in love and I don't believe in loyalty.

I lay awake last night convinced that I'll be alone now, because the only alternative is being a little less me than I am and I can't do that to myself again. I'm not good at relationships, people who are good to me bore me and people who are bad to me become obsessions. I just don't have the energy anymore, it's just an endless dance it seems and the last round wore me down.

Life is shit. Life repulses me. People annoy and irritate me and I want to be left alone. I've shared too much and given too much and sacrificed too much and here I stand now with nothing.